It is simple

The older I get the simpler things I admire. I remember that when I was 20 I hardly noticed there is any nature around me nor did I notice its beauty.
While getting older I find the nature breath taking every single day. I get totally overwhelmed when I see a tree blossoming or grass growing. I gasp when I see a leaf opening, animal galloping over the field, moon rising, sun setting or wind blowing I simply like the most natural things. Yes those things are free and still can be seen when you look around. How is that many people do not see it? Many people don't even notice is or look for it. I totally get it. They are blinded by shiny and luxurious items in the shop and on the internet. I was like that when I was young. My world had only myself thinking about what other might think about me.
So I wonder when I become so aware of the nature? I do not remember the exact moment but I recall that it was only then when I came back from working on the luxury yacht in the Mediterranean Sea. There I was surrounded with nothing but the luxury. When I came to my home village and went for a walk among the field, something inside me triggered the explosion. I remember inhaling so hardly because I wanted to keep the smell  of every single flower inside of me forever. I never wanted to forget it. I wanted to remember it and repeatedly play it in my head. I fell in love with the nature and since then I became a true devotee. I started to treat it differently. I recycle, I appreciate it, I take an energy from it, I feel alive when I am in it. It is so simple and the same time so genius....it is nature.

Love what you Do. Do what you Love. 

Sounds like a cliche? Sounds impossible? Sounds right?

Which option is You? What do you strive in life? What do you do in order to do what you love?

I have been asking myself those questions for many many years because I was unhappy, thinking I do not belong anywhere. I was always what people call  "a black sheep". 

When I was still a kid things were fine. I even remember going to a primary school and quite enjoying myself because I have had great friends. It all started at the high school when me with other girls were  bullied by a boy group. Then all my allergies started, I was permanently ill and my life purpose was to get drunk so I end up unconscious every time I could. At the uni, I had some friends but we were never real friends. We were just a survival company during those 3 long years. At home I also had a situation because my mom`s husband wouldn't talk to me without a reason for long 3 years. I was feeling I do not belong anywhere.

My salvation was my departure to the UK. There I quickly became aware of who I really am and what capacity I really have. I started to work on my English. I built real friendships and got rid of all my illnesses. This process of knowing myself is lasting till now ( 16 years later) but at least now I recognise what is right for me and which people I want in my life. I also started to like myself. For me living abroad was a priceless experience which formed my way of thinking "out of the box".

I finally found out what my real passions are and now I am making them part of my work.

I wish everyone a very fruitful life journey with as many experience as possible before you truly know yourself and truly know what you want in life.