Mindfulness

My friend invited me to the Vipassana meditation. It was my first meditation ever and I didn't know what to expect. We were explain the basics of this meditation, its elements and benefits. The practise was composed of three parts. The bending part, the walking part and the sitting part. I am  a person who is unable to stay still for longer than 1 minutes unless my mind and thoughts wonders somewhere else. Im constant planner, looking to the future or to the past. I thought I could definitely benefit from the meditation because its goal is to keep you in the present moment.

I really enjoyed the bending and the walking part but quite couldn't get through the sitting part where sitting still for 10-15mins was the crucial task. During the day when the intervals of each part got longer I got frustrated because I was feeling exhausted, asleep and with a headache. I was happy that at 4pm it was all over and I went home to rest. I thought that meditation is not simply for me. I have to say it was damm hard. I never felt this kind of exhaustion even after the hard training in the gym.

I slept on it and I woke up different. Calm, still, patient, happy and with the clear head without any thought or worries. I am enjoying my Sunday when I can do things but I do them as they come and I don't force myself to run, plan, think or get crazy.
I will definitely be practising more of Vipassana and even might go for a retreat in Thailand or somewhere in Europe. I know this will help me on my way to achieve my goals because  I know that if you can't live in the present moment it is like you don't live at all.

This bracelet is a gift from the monk Ajahn Tong Sirimangalo to all who went through at least one day of Vipassana.  Vipassana centre